Rain

I know I've said this before, but isn't it weird when you have one of those moments... Like there has been an issue that has been bothering you for a while but because you don't know what to do about it, or you don't have time to deal with it, you push it to the back of your mind, saving it for a rainy day.
And then, fate deals you that object, or event that brings it back into the foreground again, and you begin thinking about it...
As it so happens, it rained the other day and also a few things have happened in the last few days that have made me think.
There is something that I feel needs to be resolved... But I have confrontational issues.
And the other day, it seemed that I had one of those moments. The other things were just lead up, but it was like a moment of clarity, even though I am still confused, for a little while there, I felt a little better...

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it my face
Explain again to me...

Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to runaway
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to runaway

I think I just spent too much time PRETENDING that I'm not hurt. Fuck it, I don't even know if I'm hurt anymore, but I know it DID hurt and yeah, I guess I'm one to hold grudges. But this is legit, I'm not being petty,
I guess you don't know how easy it is to absolutely BREAK someone until someone does it to you...
It shouldn't be so easy, it really shouldn't

I'm sorry this post wasn't supposed to be at all whingey... I may just do another to make up for the whingey-ness