...Isn't Something Missing...

This post was GOING to be a rant about Schoolies: The Good, The Bad and The Ugly, a few lines of complaining. But then something happened...a friends dad died. And while I know that he will get through this and still be the great person he is destined to be, and I'm not afraid of death, its things like this in life, which put all other things into perspective. This last week has been a tense time for me, and while I have several friendships which are on the brink of being no more, I guess now I realise how precious it all is. It makes me sad and terrified that it took something as big as this to make me realise...
Ok, so after all this self absorbedness (shh its probably not a word, but guess what? Robbo's not here!), ...yeah i lost my train of thought.
But I went for a drive, I love the feeling of the night air on my skin, it makes you shiver, of cold, of warmth and adrenalin, I like night air...
Feeling pretty messed up at the moment, but i also feel like i have no right to feel half the things i am feeling at the moment, in the bigger picture, I am just a piece of the puzzle, small and insignificant.
Ok this is hurting, ranting and feeling like an idiot.

I will leave with some apt lyrics, the first line of which is directed at Mo

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Luv Always
Cait

This May...

... Or may not be the last post for a while, because in about an hour i am leaving for Port Elliot as part of the fun adventure we like to refer to as 'Schoolies'.
Depending on whether i will have access to the net down there, i may be posting photos and updates ... or i may not.
Have a good one
Luv Cait

Sun Comes Up & Goes Away...

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Mia, Kel, Ali and EmT

So Does Graduation Day

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Andrew, EmO, Ali, Jojo, Moi
Juan and Lisa

Have you Ever...

Have you ever made a decision or done something that at the time seemed so right, but upon reflection didn't achieve what you wanted it to, or worse, made you lose something...?

Steph

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Jake

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Looking Oh So Attractive!!

The Grad

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Just a Few Pics...

I'M DONE!!!

i dont actually know what to write actually...this post will probably never eventuate...
hehe this guy on tv just asked "why cant my brother ever catch mad cow disease...? Beacuse he's a pig" that joke is so jo-esque...."Why did the plane crash...cuz the pilot was a loaf of bread"
Yes well...i have nothing to say...Pictures are COMING

A big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Em!
Happy Legal!!

Love&Hate
Cait

One To Go...

Yes Yes Yes, i have only one exam to go, and english paper on monday morning and thus i will be finished...yes FINISHED at 10:30 am!! oh i am so excited
Anyway, other than that, my only other exciting news is that i went to see the Year 8 Musical tonight of "In Your Dreams, A Midsummer Night's Musical".
All in all it was pretty painful, mainly becasue the majority of the kids cannot sing, and so the out of tune-ness along with their inept understanding of the fact that when you breathe heavily into a microphone it makes a distubingly similar noise to darth vader in the "Luke, I am your father" scene. There was some scary dancing as well, spirit fingers were seen in all their glory and would make 'Sparky Pulastri' very very proud. Having Lauren, Bianca, Rachael and Elaine sitting in front of us singing along and mimicking the dance moves while having their hair done up with a variety of instrumments including rolled up paper, and their faces painted also made the night amusing. Caruso was cracking her whip at interval and almost ripped our heads off...for standing...
We saw Coatezz at interval and he was all surprised that we had come and we were like "dude, we need a laugh" and so he said we shud have told him and he would have given us tickets...instead we wdere suckers and pain $10 to get in, what a rip off, the money wont even go to the drama department, it will go to some completely useless fund like and upgrade to the 'Museum' which i didnt even know the school HAD until this year when we accidently (couldnt be stuffed to take it back) stole a book from there... Damn drama department is falling to pieces...u call that a drama room? u cant see th freaking stage from the damn lighting box!!!! Oknow that feels better, venting is nice...though i wish i could vent more, sleepless nights are getting old.
OD told me to get drunk on my birthday and rock up to my last exam with a huge hangover...apparently this will be good for me :s so yeah my birthday is on sunday and i'm about as unexcited as you could get....pity that.
wow, it saturday, so my nirthday is actually tomorrow....woop.
i have a drink bottle next to me, and i swear there is somethin wrong with me, i am physically unable to drink from it without being unco and spilling it all down my front, oh yeah i am mthe epitomy of class...actually that is something jo said about herself tonight....no wait that was about grace...my bad.
I dont really think that i have anything more to say really...pictures are coming i promise, also hopefully there wil be schoolies updates, god i cannot wait to get down there,..
Anyway I should go...

Luv & Hate

Cait